Holding it all together

Ask your self, how do you hold "it" all together and then wait for the answer.

Hit the Switch

" 'Cause theres a switch that gets hit and it all stops making sense
And in the middle of drinks, maybe the fifth or the sixth
I'm completely alone at a table of friends
I feel nothing for them. I feel nothing, nothing"

Dealing

In English we're learning how when you subconsciously don't want to deal with stress, problems or things that are just to unbearable for you to handle you have defense mechanisms that hide those feelings and thoughts from you. One is called Undoing, where you feel one thing but unknowing do the opposite of what you really feel. Its to bad I already do that consciously.

Anything but here

If you could stop time, would you?
There are plenty of times in my life when I'd just like to snap my fingers and make everything stop and just go away. But that is unfortunately not possible. Life does not stop for anyone, for anything, for any reason. Even though, I wish it would

Searching

We're all out there. Searching. Searching for answers we can never find. Answers that will never be there. Searching for hope, for happiness, for love, for purpose. Searching for meaning.
Frankly, I'm tired of searching. I want answers instead of 10 more questions. I want hope instead of despair. I want to feel needed instead of needless.
You can be in a room with over 1,000 people and still be the loneliest person in the world and honestly, that is exactly what I feel like