lovely bones.

Tonight after hanging out with cilla, nick, and tom

and listening to them all reminisce

all i could think about was you

and how everywhere we passed

i once sat there with you

in a car or walking or something

we had done something there

made a memory

and tonight they just all consumed me

and ate away at me

but

i'm not crying

i'm not angry

i just miss you

but i know i'll get over it tomorrow

and i'll go on like every other day

and i'm beginning to see that this is how everyone else lives the rest of their lives

and it gives me hope that maybe one day

i wont miss you

i wont wish we were best friends again

i wont wish for any of that

i'll just move on

and be content

and i wont want to call you

and tell you that i said by because i loved you

that you wouldn't have understood how every little thing you did hurt me 100 times more than it should of

that i never stopped liking you, loving you, wanting you

that i knew i could never truly be happy or get over you without saying goodbye

because in all honesty

i know you don't really care why I said goodbye

why i told you i couldnt be friends with you anymore

all you know and feel is that you utterly hate me for hurting you and not giving you an explanation

and you dont even want one now

because youve moved on

and youve made that quite clear

and so i will too

and i'll get to that point where

i'll just be content.