Tonight after hanging out with cilla, nick, and tom
and listening to them all reminisce
all i could think about was you
and how everywhere we passed
i once sat there with you
in a car or walking or something
we had done something there
made a memory
and tonight they just all consumed me
and ate away at me
but
i'm not crying
i'm not angry
i just miss you
but i know i'll get over it tomorrow
and i'll go on like every other day
and i'm beginning to see that this is how everyone else lives the rest of their lives
and it gives me hope that maybe one day
i wont miss you
i wont wish we were best friends again
i wont wish for any of that
i'll just move on
and be content
and i wont want to call you
and tell you that i said by because i loved you
that you wouldn't have understood how every little thing you did hurt me 100 times more than it should of
that i never stopped liking you, loving you, wanting you
that i knew i could never truly be happy or get over you without saying goodbye
because in all honesty
i know you don't really care why I said goodbye
why i told you i couldnt be friends with you anymore
all you know and feel is that you utterly hate me for hurting you and not giving you an explanation
and you dont even want one now
because youve moved on
and youve made that quite clear
and so i will too
and i'll get to that point where
i'll just be content.
